An early poem for July and late June - Tableau of Humiliation

I have put a curse
on you, I know I shouldn't
but I still do, a curse
a black hole of no return
Let's fall together, beginners
I have painted a tableau
of humiliation and a few drawings of
sadness, black lines mark the paper white
erase them if you can
I have put a curse on you,
before I forget and walk again. 
You, stranger of justice and mercy
lies will be your epitaph,
my curse, little yellow flowers
on the hill, reminding you
light has long abandoned you